It was not that the opportunity wasn't always present, it was just that I oftentimes give p too easily and too quickly. The toughest battle to fight I think is not the one when others don't believe in you but it is the one where you don't believe in yourself. Others can see what is in you but if you do not see and not only see but accept that which is in you, it becomes a tragedy. It is so much easier to have faith in and for others but sometimes it is so difficult to believe in yourself and that which God has placed in you.
Hold on and believe in yourself even if it doesn't make sense to you. Hold on and pursue even if it is not clear. Hold on and receive because in due time you will reap the rewards but if you do not pursue and hold on without giving up, you will never be able to experience sweet victory over your fears, doubts and insecurities. Trust God more than you trust your feelings because feelings change but He remains the same, Faithful and True.